Tavia's Thoughts - Crisis Management

I’m currently trying to navigate through a challenging relational maze.  Have you ever been there?  :-)  In these times, I experience self-talk designed to self-protect and self-justify.  I try to push it away, because it gets me down, but 5 minutes after pushing it away, it seems like it is right back again.  Paul had that same tendency and I’m so glad he wrote about it in Romans 7.  At least I’m not the only one who wants to do right, but has a hard time doing it!  Paul says exactly what I feel when he says,

“Something has gone wrong deep within me and gets the better of me every time.  It happens so regularly that it’s predictable!  The moment I decide to do good, sin is there to trip me up.  I truly delight in God’s commands, but it’s pretty obvious that not all of me joins in that delight.  Parts of me covertly rebel, and just when I least expect it, they take charge.  I’ve tried everything and nothing helps.  I’m at the end of my rope.  Is there no one who can do anything for me?”

So this week, in the midst of my inner chaos, I shared with God my fear of being sabotaged when I really wanted to do good.  And I shared my fear that I would mess everything up!  And here is what I found…I found that God accepted my fear, he already knew my dilemma, he already made a way for me to relax and most of all, that he tenderly loved me even though I couldn’t handle my situation.  Christ already did all the work for me.  “He acted to set things right in this life of contradictions…” (Rom 7:25 The Message.)  And this act that was done in the past, on the cross, is ongoing for me today, in my ordinary, relationship filled life because God himself is present when I welcome this salvation into my life…and I know God is going to provide everything I need if I greet God with a childlike “What’s next, Papa?” (Rom. 8:15, The Message)